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Archive for October, 2007

Memories

I’m moving sometime soon[1]. Into a smaller house. Which means I have to, and want to, get rid of my married SCA woman’s’ worth of stuff, since this single and not playing SCA so much at the moment girlie doesn’t need it[2]. I have a need to be leaner and meaner, at least in terms of my possessions. Less with the mean towards the people around me.

Anyway, I digress. As usual.

Last night I opened a box that hasn’t been touched since I moved into this house over 2 years ago, expecting to find old course notes and bills to be sorted and recycled as appropriate. I was wrong. What I found was my store of letters and diaries from my exchange year to Thailand and the year just before and after.

That was emotional, and astounding.

I wasn’t going to read any of them, but on the top was a letter from my Pop and his partner May, a woman who became my 3rd grandmother (I was blessed I had 5 grandparents). They have both passed away. I read the letter with a sense of love and joy at still being able to hear them, even though they’re not here anymore, but also with tears in my eyes since I still miss them.

At the time of writing May had severe tunnel vision and mobility issues and yet the letter is well written and speaks of a woman who is aware of her limits, but is going to push them and live a full life. A woman who still had joy and hope and interest in the world around her. She was a remarkable woman, spent her life volunteering for the Red Cross, and was one of the first people into Darwin after Cyclone Tracey. She was alert and engaged her entire life, despite the strokes that affected her physically. Always a joy to spend time with, generous and quick-witted, always making us laugh. One holiday when I was 13 or so, and spending a lot of time with a boy who happened to be holidaying near us she had one question for me: “Did you find out how much money he has??” as a less embarrassing way of saying, “are you having fun? He seems like a nice chap” to her granddaughter. I still have some books she gave me, the necklace she gave me one birthday is still one of my favourite pieces and gets frequently worn, and the ring that she gave me before she died is a treasured object and became a replacement ring a year ago when my left hand felt empty.

My Pop was an educated, cultured, intelligent “bush” man. He grew up in Cobar, loved poetry and singing Gilbert & Sullivan (he had an excellent bass voice), loved history and random aphorisms. He had an excellent copperplate hand, and a fantastic turn of phrase, both of which I remembered while reading the letter last night. At the end of the letter he gave me a few words of advice (which I might type into here later tonight) and then described some headstones he’d discovered in the local cemetery. This letter reminded me of the Pop I loved, not the mentally ill, paranoid, worn out man he became in his later years. The man who was 6ft something tall, had piercing blue eyes, and a girth such that I could only just put my arms around him to hug him, was loud in voice, never on time, had a love of gardening and making up stories for small children to explain the world around them. Despite appeareances and my family’s received wisdom (we were told he didn’t know how to deal with kids, but I suspect that was my father’s experience of his childhood coming through) you could tell that his family was important to him, there were always photos of us all around the house and stories of any time he spent with the other branches of the family.

The other items I picked up were journal entries from me age 15, 18, and 20. It’s strange to read back at the various thoughts and experiences and to see what has changed, what has been a theme the entire time and what I was completely innocent and clueless about.

I’m going to have to put those letters somewhere more obvious and have a read sometime soon. There’s lots to remember and re-connect with.

[1]yes, I know where, Camperdown, and with who, a friend and former work colleague. No, I don’t have a date yet, it’s looking like election day though.
[2]I’ve started a box of things that are useful/working but I won’t want. My current flatmate has first dibs, but if you want to be in on the re-use list then let me know.

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Bay of the Hawkesbury
Originally uploaded by Miss Krin

A friend and I went to Kuringai National Park on Saturday to go on a walk and do some camping, but the closure of most of the walks in the park due to fires stopped that idea.

Instead we had a day of spontaneity which was wonderful.

First stop Illawong Point (the photo) where it was shoes off and stand on rocks in the water time while chatting about the nature of the universe.

Then a drive around General Martin Drive until we hit the edge of the national park and an inviting hillside encouraged us to climb it, sit on a rock for 20 mins and just listen to a whip bird calling his mate. It was a she-oak, bracken fern and cabbage tree palm forest, nice and open, yet a bit lush with hidden pockets. The fact that the incline was essentailly a soft cliff made the climb just enough of a challenge, particularly as we were making our own path.

Just around the corner from there we found a picnic ground with a wharf and people fishing. Better yet we found a medium sized fig tree that was crying out to be climbed. So we did. And then lazed about in the branches for a while enjoying the sensation of doing stuff just because it is fun. Saw some poocackle birds (my family’s name for yellow-breasted honey eaters) having a territorial scuffle, and saw an badly disguised sleepy possum up a tree. Badly disguised as it was a single tree, which was quite bare and he’d wedged himself a third of the way up. We sort of stared at each other for a while but he was too dopey to do much else than move his ears a bit. It’s good to know that he was fearless enough to do that, mustn’t be too many cats in the area.

Stormy weather broke over our heads at one point, which was exhilarating, but as it only lasted for a few minutes we didn’t suffer any consequences.

After describing the day on my radio show later that evening I was sent the xkcd comic below. Sums it all up really. Hurrah for simple, happy days.

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